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i am this timid girl
eager to discover every
thing, and yet i hold back.
i found this space in the
world, but i don't fit, and
i want, so badly, without
accepting what i (still
maybe, a hesitation) can't
have. 

i deconstructed my self 
on the eastbound train,
then scattered the pieces across miles,
no one would know the whole story.

you stood
in front of everyone
and read me poetry
you held my hand
kissed me
took me on that midnight hike
and fell in love
with an image of me 
(images fade)

and you 
you romanced me with your honesty
and passion
ant the two thousand miles
i was dreaming of
you knew where to find me
when i disappeared (barefoot)
and even knowing me better than anyone
you fell in love
with an image of me
(images fade)

it’s amazing how far you can see 
the glistening sun reflect off each little wave
i’m watching from my room and it looks like i could see forever
but i’ve learned that forever is deceiving
it’s a promise that can’t be kept

if i had a dollar when i went to church
(if i went to church)
i would light a candle for you
maybe you need that
you obviously need something
yet i have nothing left to offer
you don't want what i am
you're holding on to this image i created
but that was years ago
i'm not that image anymore
now i can stand on my own two feet,
say "world, here i am
take me"