amy gerstler
colorlessness
Eventually, we all lost the perfumed, bejeweled world, beyond which lies silent anarchy. The yellow of burnt grass evaporates like fumes. Poof! The green of leeks is gone. You’re robbed of the rich ripe browns of feces, the ringing inner pink of grilled beef. The watery gray of writing and drawing ink fades away too. Clear-seer, observer of matter’s never-ending attempt to reduce or augment itself into just light, does color’s flight prefigure your coming nothingness: mud to flesh to thin air, or will some tendril at last burst from you: saffron, black, or earwax orange, to scare the pants off both atheists and verse mongers - a spindly rebellion germinated for ages, not in follicle or marrow, but in that maypole of our emotions: fear, whose multicolored ribbons flutter and flutter like nerves branching from a backbone - they twitch and sting but can never be grasped. Throughout the pervasive gray of disgrace, the purple of complaint, despite your alternating caresses and attempts to shrug me off, I swear by the reek of the dung heap, by the slip and slide of white silk, by the feelings you stupidly unleashed in me, I will never lose you completely in the gathering tide of colorlessness, due to love’s stubborn tint.
posted: june 16, 2005 | 09:59 am